dawn

Well, i am typing this actually on 1.30 am sharp. But I'm collecting all of my ideas for such a long time. I've been planning to type this since several days ago, but I hadn't get the chance yet. I think this is a common problem for us, mostly teenagers and young adults among us.

How do we value relationships between people?
As a lovers maybe, friend, enemies, family, colleagues, and many more..

But I think, what is common nowadays is between lovers. Sometimes lovers easily get into quarrels, aren't they? How we develop tolerance to the other person? Well, sometimes they just blunt about love. But,there's this cycle I've seen on Tumblr. From strangers, to friends, then they become lovers, and they become ex's and back to strangers again. How pathetic?

Well you can make to keep a healthy friendship relationship, if our mindset is mature to let go, to accept the truth, and it's a life man! Deal with it.

Most of my friends shared their stories, why did they break up, and some other else. Sometimes it because of lack of emotional control. When you are in love, sometimes we accept and enjoy the love but running back and avoid the pain.

And, when somebody betrays you, be strong. It means God still care about who's best in your life. When somebody cheated on you, deal with it. You are not alone. but the lessons that we could take is............there's still this importance to value, respect, and run your relationship.

I'm not a love genius, but this is what I've seen before. Dawn! 2.40 smthng, Gbu

Technologic

1. Skype with niaa :) [above]
2. TUMBEASTS! of Tumblr.

3. MSN with Isa

yes! We are going to technologic. Not really, just saying around tho, because of my phone is like dying. Literally "dying" huft. Just imagine (if you want to), my GPRS data access is lost, I cannot making phone calls at a moment, Pending text messages or unreachable texts, and it can be hang anytime soon which is terrible. It means I should open the battery many times. Huft. Why oo Why :(

Well, I love skype a lot and have upgraded it to the newest version 5.1 something, and it can work as a group video call like oovoo does! YAAAAAY! But, I havent tried it out yet, shoulda wait for anthon and lauren to do that together. Well the longest conversation is between me and Nia, it's for 2 hours ++ and she's doing it while she did her homework and while she's eating ice cream and I was eating french fries hahaha!

and, I love tumblr. Tons of CSW and interesting pictures, but when it has gone down, I will like..... ;o Because I cant reblog anything :( which is bad. uh okay, keep on updated with technology is necessarty, but remember to keep in balance :)

Well, lately I've been having nice MSN chats. But I lost the grab for my chat and jope's :( He asked me why I was like sad and all over and give me few suggestions but it works!! Thank you, he's one of my trustworthy besties besides nia :D Well I bought 50D canon camera because of him! hahaha and I did not regret it at all~ but now he suddenly loses his interest on photography ;p bwkwkw

and Isa, my besties as well, she's nice and kind. Maybe at once you'll think she's shy, stingy, cuek, asal or whatsoever but she's great. And she gave me a lesson about kindness which sometimes we often to forget. luvuisa

:)

I admit I was emotional. But I just hardly accept the fact :'( Sorry bout that, but it doesn't mean I dont love my parents. Ofcourse and indeed I love them and they are God's representative in my life. Couldn't ask for more and accept the fact. Thank God

emo

GOD, I'M PISSED, saya kecewa. saya kesal, saya muak! saya capek, saya cuma mau minta keadaan jadi kayak dulu. Papa Lord, aku mau curhat, mungkin aku udah gak bisa jelasin kalo aku doa, aku cuma bisa nulis apa yang lagi aku alamin. APA SAYA MASIH MEMIKIRKAN INI DENGAN PIKIRAN JERNIH, aku gak tau. gak tau. :'( D': dibilang saya nyerah, gak tau. tapi baru ngerasain harusnya gw cepetan IGCSE dan keluar dari sini.

It was started off with a business problem. Even far behind I understand, I am truly understand you are active in church and social related events, it makes you rarely at home and spending your time at home. Even when you are here, I rarely talk and spend time with you, it's either me is studying, playing, nor you are watching tv and making phone calls. I thought and I bet it WAS okay.

I knew, I knew, your problem was not easy. My heart was aching too, I could never imagine it, how I would react to it. But, I'm still a teenager, I still listen to the updates of your problems, I still want to have fun. And you said, please help you to lessen the burdens? I started to keep away all school matters and mine off yours.

And just today, congratulations. You really made me feel the worst. Worse than ever. I'm having the immersion week. And all the activities that I've chosen are some of my favorites and I used to enjoy it. Today, my feet aches all over. I walked not in a normal way, I was walking to open the door, and when she asked, I answered, it's because of basketball, and then you gave me a deep statement.

AND IT WAS COMPLETELY DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE. you said.... "kaki kenapa sih? kenapa kayak anak cowok banget, tolong dong ringanin beban orang tua.. lagi ada masalah..." Ya terus kenapa?! Aku gak ada hubungannya sama itu, terus kenapa cuma karena futsal dan basket dibilang kayak anak cowo? itu jg hobi dan aku yang bertanggung jawab kalo aku agak cedera dan itu bisa ilang sendiri, cedera itu sering dulu pas basket, pertamanya sakit karena susah naik turun tangga tp itu sepele, dan note this down! MASIH LEBIH BANYAK ANAK CEWE YANG MUNGKIN LEBIH GANTENG atau LEBIH SPORTY DARI PADA AKU. kalo cowo masak emang kayak anak cewe? terus kalo aku nekunin fotografi, karena fotografer rata2 cowok, jadi anak cowo juga?! kenapa sih, kalo emang emosi jangan dibawa ke aku juga dong. aku udah capek, capek capek kalo semuanya dah gak bisa kayak dulu, semua gara2 satu orang yang skrg emg musuh terbesar yg pernah ada. capek malah ga dingertiin dan dilihat dari perspektif lain.

I DID NOT ASK YOU AND I NEVER ASK YOU TO COME AND GET CLOSER TO ME. Even you did not try to get to know me. That's your minus point upon me, mom and dad. You dont know me so well, so that you dont know how to deal with me and teenagers. I know you are strong to pass other problems, but for me, you still need to learn to talk to us- daughter/teenagers. If you wonder why I keep my mouth shut, is because I'm avoiding stupid arguments that's NEVER necessary. and you should learn ASAP before my bro gets the same feeling as I did. Why I avoid dinner, I did not want to talk with you dan bahkan gw kelepasan ngusir? Karena emang udah gak nafsu dan ga perlu diomongin dulu. note that down, we cant meet halfway if our situations are like this.

God, how can I solve this problem, if they just dont learn from this kind of situation? I cant force them rite? They dont take care of me only. While I'm learning, but they dont, how can this be better? Patient is not enough.

ts-ts-tsunami

well quite a long day today. but I want to share about this. This morning, at a glance I saw dad's newspaper. It's about Japan. remember, tsunami happened again? *changing language* Jadi, pas pagi karena gw baca koran papa, gw super tertarik untuk nulis ini. Jadi tulisannya itu,(gak sama persis tapi ini gw gambarkan aja ya) dunia kagum dan memberikan pujian kepada Jepang karena walaupun ditimpa dengan 3 masalah/musibah sekaligus, (tsunami, ekonomi dan radiasi nuklir); para warga tetap tenang dan tidak ADA penjarahan.

Guys, can you see what I'm trying to say? TIDAK ADA PENJARAHAN. hey, you see how educated the people there? They already used to the quakes there, but hey tsunami and nuclear radiation affect their life so much. Rethink, almost all problems happen at the same time, but no crimes. When Indonesia can be the next great country like Japan? See, even at the bad times we can consider Japan for something good!

So, have you INCLUDE Japan in your prayers' lists? Pray for the victims, pray for the system there.

:) GB

just being easily tired these days. Hm, ignore my bad english. I just need to release all the pressure that's being on. I got home late today since I picked up dad from his office, got a late dinner and got into another bump of traffic. THAT WAS TERRIBLE. ever. Havent get anything done yet, will be doing that in the morning. So, uhum, bed time now? :(

plus, sometimes we just need to know about love. balance them. and make it the way that it's comfortable for all people see and act about that. love is dangerous when you abuse them.

I dont think I get it. I know this is random but, I think it's not a healthy or proper way to run a relationship that shallow. it's just weird. I'd love to tell you, but sometimes you and time is as hard as rocks.

#prayforJAPAN #prayforWORLD

p.s: I'm letting bro bring my 50D baby, be good. God protects him completely.

Hello. I'm tired. I havent finished my IT yet. Lately my mood to study is in the early morning. I enjoyed the silence and I just had my moment there. Have been waking up on 4 am or 3.30am, and sometimes if I still have time to sleep, I have 30 mins extra sleep! B) Thank God for every single thing that I've passed. Well, I'm still on the trial mode for studying early, because I still love to staying up late, but just feeling not really focused yet to study. If I'm feeling comfortable to study in the morning, I'll try it at night as well. Aiming to improve the grades, but sometimes still too much playing around.

God's good. I love my family, but sometimes not my society. I know, aye world is unfair, eh? But I know, as time flies by, all things will be settled down, which now I've been receiving answers. I still got few back friends that support me. Uuu, dont ask me why, I enjoy skype. It's fundamental hahaha! Video call wift some dudes like lauren, vania, and conference call with anthun. oh, yongky as well. and jope? But not that often, I just happy to use this free-advance technology. I just have this random thoughts popping out of my mind, since I;m out from this blogging world for such a long time.

Bro will be going to Beijing this Friday, which I'll be having futsal match girls for two hours, and he asking me whether he can bring my camera. I definitely refuse to let him bring mine. AAAA come on, for 8++days? Two lenses? I even havent invest my savings for another lense to be used, he'll be using it? ;s nuooo anyway if one of you guys will give me polaroid instax 50s as my birthday present, I'll love you, super super love you :** And still chasing for 50mm f1.4 or 300mm smthing? or 18-135mm. yeah, i know, am I a gadget freak like boys out there? aye, my parents got the money, but I always select them (gadgets) that are worth to be used... Keeping up with trends? Well I can do that, but sometimes I just dont have the will. I just know lots of things, thats why I'm learning and people always telling me. I havent use a blackberry yet, it doesnt mean I dont understand how to use them and reboot them when it errors. I just looking for the right gadget, at the right time.

I know, hobby sometimes matter. I know mom and dad are not into this kind of hobby, but hopefully *sure* they'll understand (I was confused why they offered me camera). I am not nagging for lens, I'll just ask properly. I know the answer right away, so I decided to save my money. Coz I know, mom and dad have the purpose why they dont give me anything that I want. I want to learn how to drive, mom and dad expect me to. But I want to learn how to use the motorcycle but dad definitely refuse my idea. i'll just wait for another moment and I'll be driving on my own. Hm, I dont know, let me just name this post as random post.

I dont even know what are the key points that I;ve been writing, it is just so random.

and p.s: friend out there has turned into a total stranger for me and for some other people. Oh man, sorry, if that's what you call LOVE, you have NEVER, I repeat. NEVER. ever learn what love is all about. Be wise, it's not something selfish and you need trust from each other! And it doesnt mean you should REJECT yourself from world, other friends with opposite sex or somekind of close friend you having. It sucks? No, I dont know. Love is indeed blind, so what are the eye opener? And It doesnt mean you should ignore all the people that's trying to connect and to communicate with you. That's not the real thing.

okay, just stop len. I was in rage, since I've clearly seen the definite wrong definiton of love. ciao,Gbu

*the most random post ever been done*